a lost possibility

It’s soft. slow. steady.

It’s Hot. Heavy. Heart-shattering.

I tried to expect

nothing

I tried not to hope for

anything

She gave me

Everything

that I wasn’t supposed to be

hoping for

More.

I do not want

more than

that Moment

I do not need

more

She gave me

More.

Her warmth

pressed against me

filling me

with an Unknown Feeling

My senses overload

my heart is ready to explode

from nerves

from excitement

from fear

from Fear.

Fear that I will hurt her

Fear that I will do something wrong

Fear that I am not enough

Fear that she deserves more than me

Her eyes

swallow me whole

recover my soul

Hold me.

Let me hold you.

I just want to touch you.

To feel you.

To know that we are together.

Together

in this moment

She kisses me

again

an ending

or a goodbye

or a memory

re-lived for one more

fleeting moment

to be stored forever

imprinted in our skin

in our lips

in our minds

to be written

in a poem

in hopes that she

felt it too

that she

wants

to remember it

too

in hopes that

this memory

is not a memory

is not something to be

stored away

in our minds

in a poem

but instead

something

Lived.

something

Loved.

I am forever

in that Moment

I am forever

loving You.